Tag.... I've been it!

I got tagged in Amber's Blog decades ago and am just now coming off the recruitment weekend and am feeling quite a bit overwhelmed with all the work I need to do. So I figured I'd take a minute to completely procrastinate before heading off to Great World Speeches.

1) What is your favorite thing about being in a relationship with your boyfriend/fiancé/spouse?

Ahh, well if I had to only pick one thing I suppose it would be the fact that he's always coming up with creative ways to help me. Weather it's a drawing on my mirror to brighten my morning and coming to rescue when there's a spidy in our apartment, he manages to "fix" everything with a solution I never ever would have thought of.
2) If you could go anywhere in the world for an entire week with your girlfriends, where would you go and why?

I think I'd take them all to Hawaii. It's been really hard for me to make a new life here without the chance to ever show anyone where I come from. The oceans that made me and the houses that built me. I'd take them to all the places you'll never read about in a tour guide book because their "local spots."

3) What persona were you in high school: Miss Popular, The Sporty Girl, The Book Worm, Etc.

I was deffinitly and still consider myself to have been The Book Worm. I had a mullet all through elementry school and it pretty much carried through. I still read for fun, even though the only time that fits in is when I'm ellipticalling. School and my grades have always been important and hopefully that'll pay off when Grad schools start coming back to me.

4) Have you ever been stereotyped in any way? What did you have to do to overcome that stereotype – or are you still struggling with it?

I think when I became a sorority girl I was immediately characterized as what people see on TV. I know my own family was even skeptical of the acts that were going on to become a member. But Tri-Sigma really isn't like that and once anyone takes the time to speak to any member for more than 30 seconds they typically realize that. I try to brush it off and realize that none of the women I associate myself with behave in those ways.
5) What’s your favorite song of all time?

Ahh that would be the old stand by, Love Story by Taylor Swift. I'm pretty sure I have every version of it on my ipod, regular, techno, acoustic. It will be played at my wedding.

6) What’s your favorite holiday and why?

Hmmm, probably Valentine's day because although there are gifts it's not actually about the physical thing you get it's more about the thought that went into it and the whole day being dedicated to showing the people around you that you care. I know that I definitely don't do this enough (I'm not the biggest fan of emotions or feelings) so when I get the chance I try to embrace it.

7) If you could change one thing about yourself (body, personality, abilities, etc) what would it be and why?

Hmm, well approaching this week I'm praying for the capability to either add time to the day or to learn to delegate with grace and compassion. I struggle to be a strong leader because I feel like I loose a bit of momentum once I'm up and running full speed.

8) What is something that makes you feel incredibly feminine?

I'm girly but never fashionable and I have always wished that I would just have a more grown up sense of fashion and color choices etc. but I still like bright colors and simply outfits. I feel very feminine when I have on a really put together outfit that includes high heels and typically some sort of scarf or well choose accessory. This really doesn't happen very often though, I need to keep practicing.

I can't help Falling in Love with You

I know it's really cheesy. But the version by Andrea Bodocelli and Katherine McPhee popped up on my Itunes and I instantly melted and envisioned a wedding dance floor. Strange huh? Especially since anything serene is as far in the horizon as ever!

It's a constant tornado around here and I feel topsy turvy as I try to feel it all. Sometimes it's as if I'm too smart for my own good, and I recognize too many things I'm suppose to be remembering and enjoying. The ups and downs are what makes it real but sometimes when I have just that one second to spare I don't even know what to do with myself.

But you know what I do know? I'm so lucky to have him, and them. By them I mean my sisters and by him I mean that guy who remembers where I have applied to and what I'm scared of. He remembers my sisters names and never lets me forget he loves me. It's as easy as the effort for searching for a Taylor Swift card or making me a quick lunch.

Sometimes I wonder why I'm so lucky.

"Take my hand, take my whole life too."

Here's to the Dollhouse

Goodbyes are bittersweet and as the fall air comes to the mountains the aire of change is all around. I don't get home too often, but I came home to watch the loves of my life march and was incredibly impressed with the positive light that is here in my home and in the hearts of my family. They handle everything so well, with such resilience.

Hearts to heart regarding the closing date are difficult and short but necessary and at times relieving. Hopefully it'll be over soon, painless as possible. As the saying goes you never know unless you try and I personally don't see it as a failed attempt but somedays she does and others she doesn't.

It's hard and complicated but I know it's what's right. Today's a day to celebrate their accomplishments and marvel in how much they grew up even though I've only been gone 3 weeks. High school will do that.

Maybe this time isn't goodbye, but I know that's on the horizon. I'll squeeze my eyes and wish on that shooting star, or is it an airplane? Star light star bright I wish I may I wish I might, have this wish I wish tonight. Take us somewhere small and perfect. A tiny burden and let's push the restart button.

Petrified

I have putting this off all summer. Well actually I suppose a better more honest way to phrase that is that I have been working towards this moment all summer. But I'm not sure I'm ready. But I hit send anyways.

I just submitted the general application to The University of Tennessee. Their college student personnel program is my top choice. I'm awaiting on one last tiny detail before I hit send on the specific program application, but the essays are done and hopefully the i's are all dotted. But now comes the terrible, horrible worst no good part.

Waiting.

I'm pathetically horrible at waiting. I emailed the dean of students my resume and she emailed me back within minutes telling me thank you for my interest in the program. I'm sure it was a generic email, but I saved it anyways.

Never-mind you that I have to finish and send my Clemson, App State and a few others in for scrutinizing and long months of waiting. I've sent my first one in, and maybe that'll be the hardest one. The rest will just roll right off my back, along with the hundreds of dollars it's costing me to get them just to consider me for their programs.

So keep your fingers and toes (maybe even eyes) crossed, and toss a little prayer my way whenever you think of me. I have big dreams and I need to go somewhere with them.